I treasure every memory of you

My Dear Son Chris,

As I sit here and write this letter to you I wonder if you can see and hear me.  I want so much to believe you can.  I have to believe you can.  It still seems so unreal to me that you are not here.  I miss you so much.  I honestly do not know how we have all come this far.  I guess we are all survivors and stronger than we thought.  We have all struggled in our own way and will continue to struggle.  I try to remember the happy and funny memories which are many.  I can’t bring myself down remembering the struggles and troubles you had in your young life.  I can tear myself up wondering if I was a good mom to you and I really believe I was.  I only wish I had the chance to help you.  So many changes in our lives without you.  We are all moving forward day by day.  Doing what we all think is best for us.  Your laughter and smile are etched in my mind and will never be forgotten.  I love you so much and am so thankful for the 22 years I had you, even though I wish it were more.  I treasure each and every memory I have of you.  No one can ever take that away.  I miss you so much my angel Chris.

Love, Your Mom Forever

Kristi, mom of Chris

3/16/79 – 10/29/01

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